Day 49

Its the middle of probably the most intense week since I've been here. We've just crammed a weeks worth of prophetic teaching into two days and its been the best two days so far. I forgot how much fun the prophetic is. Anyways firstly I must give thanks to God because he's cool. On Monday I didn't feel like worshipping at all in the morning. I just wasn't in the mood and then as they started to play i just felt a freedom to just worship and my focus was completely on Jesus. The funny thing was that our school director led worship and it was the worst worship musically since we've been here and he'll testify to that. I just understood the worship teams hearts and it was the most free I've been in worship since I've been here. It was just a really great time of worship for me personally.
God has been doing so much over these last two days. In the afternoons we're doing prophetic activation which is basically just practising prophecy. So we'd be put on the spot and told give a word. Its just been a whole lot of fun and God has really been speaking. People have been coming to me saying that the words I've been giving have been spot on and people have been really blessed. Some people have been reduced to tears by what God has been saying through me and I just give all the glory to him and thank him for what he's been doing through me. So people now have the prophecy bug so when we get back to the hotel we have prophecy meetings amongst ourselves and we just give words to each other. I know I've had words about the prophetic and stuff but yeah it's just been a really good few days. Also the Father loves you conference starts tomorrow so I'll be on the ministry team for that and I'll also be working in the Kitchens in the afternoons, so that will be good. God is moving and I'm excited about it.

Day 45

Greetings. We just finished the "healing life's hurts" week. It was good. They dealt with a lot of stuff like generational sin, ungodly beliefs and deliverance. It was really good. The week didn't really hit me in my heart but I came into it thinking it would. God has been speaking to me about patience and just waiting for his timing. If I trust him I know he'll do his will and that's whats best for me. He also spoke to me about my mom and dad and how blessed I've been by them. A lot of the stuff they were talking about came from broken relationships and lack of trust etc. By the grace of God that hasn't really been an issue for me because I've such great parents. So yeah I'm just trusting the Lord and pursuing him. I know he has great plans for me. Last Thursday night was really good. It was a "seek his face meeting" which is mainly worship and just seeing what he wants to do. It was a really great time of worship and the Lords presence was really there. It was just a really good night. Next week will be the end of the core value month and its all to do with the prophetic and stuff. The Father loves you conference is on next week too so we'll be working and ministering at that. Ed Piorek and Jack Frost will be sharing an Kelly Warren will be doing some worship. So it should be a tiresome but good week. I'm looking forward to it.

Visual aid 2

So here so more pictures that may help you visualise . The first is from my time with the Youthstorm guys. Its Dave, Maddie and I doing a gig at another Borders. Maddie is an amazing violinist, she plays key's in the worship team and has a beautiful voice. She is truly anointed. The rest are of my trip up the CN tower. One is of me standing on the glass floor looking down and the other is a view of Toronto from the highest point open to the public which is about 447m. It was cool The last one is of a bunch of friends and I on the glass floor. We're all different Nationalities. I'll leave ye guess where the others are from. I hope ye enjoy the photos, keep in touch and God bless.

Day 39

We just finished the " Father Heart of God " week yesterday. It was a really good week. I talked about what happened to me on Monday in my previous post and God continued to work in me. I felt a bit poorly mid-week, I thought I was getting an ear infection but I got prayer and the pain is subsiding. I didn't feel the holy spirit as much as I did on Monday but I feel God is telling me to be patient and just to wait for his timing. Some of the stories the speakers told were just so touching and really ministered to my heart. They talked a lot about forgiveness and the week really focused on that, forgiving others and forgiving ourselves so we can truly feel the love the father has for us. On Friday we did what was called "walking in the light". We were given an opportunity to confess our sins to our small group leaders which was good and i got some release there.
One thing I found hard was the angle they preached from. They preached from the aspect of being fatherless, which was hard for me as I've the best Dad in the world and he knows all my secrets and stuff so i found it tough in that aspect. I still got so much out of the week and i feel there is a work in progress going on in my heart. Its exciting.
We have a day off every Saturday so a bunch of us went to downtown Toronto and we went up the CN tower to the highest point possible and saw some amazing views. So I had a nice day off and I'm making good friends. Keep me in your prayers and keep in touch.

Day 35

Good morning, I hope I find ye all well. We're in the middle of the Father heart of God week and its really good. Our teachers are Peter and Heather Jackson. They're really friendly and down to earth people and very hands on in their style and leave a lot of room for the holy spirit to move.

Monday was really good. They talked about judgements we have and humility etc. It was weird, the sharing didn't really speak to me in the sense of it wrenched my heart but just some of their stories touched me. Then during the ministry time we all just spread out and waited for the holy spirit to come. I wasn't feeling anything really furry or fuzzy but I just felt normal but then all of sudden tears welled up in my eyes and I cried. I didn't feel convicted but it was just the holy spirit resting on me and that's the way i wanted to be touched and it happened. So I cried for 2 or 3 minutes and I was like " Thank you Jesus that felt good, I needed that." I was fine then and I was just standing in the room, feeling normal but as I looked around I saw all the guys just crying and I was like " uh oh" and tears began to fall again and it was good. This was over the course of 10 or 15 min. After that I was fine and just stood around. I had been touched and was happy. However, I know there's so much more to come. Wednesday should be good and I know there's more tears in me to come out.

This week is all about the fathers heart. I know in my mind that I have a heavenly Dad and stuff but I think I just need to feel it in my heart. I have such a great relationship with my own Dad that I never really pursued God the father. I've always looked for Jesus or the holy spirit. I feel its now time for me to truly feel God, the father's love not only in my mind but in my heart as well. To really feel something tangible and real, not just words on a page or a thought in my mind but to have his arms around me and hear him call me son. That's whats going on at the moment so pray that I will have that experience of truly feeling the father's love.

I'm safe and healthy and enjoying my time here and making lots of friends and learning and experiencing loads. Keep in touch and God bless

Day 33

Well Good evening, I hope I find ye all well. Things are good on my end. I went to my first TACF Sunday meeting and it was good. I know I'm just going to get blasted by the holy spirit at some point and whether i start shaking, get drunk or nothing happens I know its going to be amazing. I can't wait to draw closer to God the father as well and there's just so much that I know is going to happen and its daunting. I just God to do his will and have his way with me because he knows best. Its exciting. Also I'm in awe of the place, I sometimes find it hard to enter into worship because my mind is racing with all that's going on. So if your praying for me and I know ye all are pray that I can just concentrate on him and I know everything else will come in time. Again I thank you all so much for your prayers. They mean so much to me and I know God is answering them because I've been so blessed recently. This week coming is focusing on the father's heart which is going to be class. Please join me in prayer as I ask God to reveal himself in a new way. Wow, even my posts are getting holier, this place is working. I'm sure I'll remember other stuff when I'm done posting but anyways keep in touch and I'm praying for ye all.

Day 31

Good evening,
Things have been good here. I'm settling in now, making friends and getting to know everyone. This month is the core value so at the moment we're doing a class on hearing God's voice with a guy called Mark Virkler. Its good stuff and is based around Habakkuk 2:1-2. A lot of it is based on journaling as well, so we're half way through that at the moment. We've a new roommate. His name is Mattie and he's from Toronto. Real nice guy. The hotel has a pool and hot tub so I'm enjoying that every night. The food here is nice and mom you'll be glad to know I'm eating loads of fruit and veg so don't worry. So that's whats going on at the moment. Everyone at youthstorm ask Denise or Jonny for my email because I'd love to hear from you guys. Ye impacted me and blessed me so much. Everyone at home, I love ye guys and keep in touch.

1 month

Thank you so much everyone. I checked my email and found 8 messages (6 from the blog). It was so uplifting and an answer to prayer. Keep it up! I know its just going to take a couple of days to settle in. My mind is still a bit on Youthstorm as I was so blessed by them and God is doing so much there. Anyways I suppose I better fill you all in whats happening. I arrived yesterday and got to the hotel about two and registration just began. So i registered and got my welcome pack. I'm sharing a room with two other guys. Daniel is from Virginia and Matt is from Ohio. Both guys are doing the heart module. There's 3 modules here. Heart, bible and worship. For the first month we are all together doing the core values and the classes will split in April. We're staying in the hotel for the first month and at the start of April we'll move into the new school of ministry building. Its hard as there's over 70 students and we're just all getting to know everyone. I know God is going to do so much here. Just this morning I wasn't feeling really spiritual and there was just this moment in the worship where tears just started rolling down my face. It was just the holy spirit. It wasn't a huge cry but I know there will be a few more and I'm actually looking forward to them. I'm excited and still a bit apprehensive but I know that will pass. I'm just going to give everything to God and let him do his will. Thank you for everything and keep in touch

Day 27

Its 9pm on my first day of the school of ministry. I left the Youthstorm guys this morning which I found really tough. I'm alone now for the first time. I'm by myself for the 1st time ever and I don't know anybody. Its daunting and scary. This next few weeks is when I need your prayers the most. I'm very uncertain and I don't like the unknown. So please pray for me. My last few days with Youthstorm were great. They're one of the soundest bunch of people I've ever come across. Its like a 2nd home to me now. So it was very hard to leave them especially with what God is doing there with JHOP. Yesterday I played american football. Today I'm in a lot of pain so I need prayer for that too. It was great fun though. I'm in the hotel now in my room which i share with 2 other guys at the moment and possibly one more. I know its going to be a great time but I just am in real need of prayer over these next few days to help settle in and stuff. Also please email me. It would be a real boost to hear whats going on in your lives. I'm doing well but I'm just apprehensive at the moment and vulnerable i guess and I miss everyone at youthstorm. My address here for all mail is : Philip Day
Toronto Airport Christian Fellowship
SCHOOL OF MINISTRY
272 Attwell Drive
Etobicoke, Ontario
M9W 6M3
CANADA

Day 25

These last few days have been amazing. JHOP started on Wednesday which is totally class. Being surrounded by all these intercessors has an affect on you. You start pacing the floor and rocking from side to side. This is really an assembled army who have set up camp behind enemy lines and are going to fight and is rubs off an you. I never saw myself as an intercessor but its infectious. Its 24 hour prayer and youthstorm have taken the 12pm to 6pm block. The 6 hours is split into 3 separate blocks. The first is intercession then devotional which is like soaking really and the final 2 hours is intercession again. There's worship constantly. On Thursday I did the music for the devotional block which was just me on guitar singing Psalms and just worshipping. It was really cool. In the intercession blocks. I just found myself just praying hard. It was real intense stuff. I reminded myself of my Dad. This would be dad and Eilish heaven I think. The only disappointing thing is I have to leave and I'm going to miss out on what God is doing here but I know God has planned great things for me in Toronto and that's where he wants me to be.
Today (Friday) i didn't go to JHOP as I spent today with Shawn's mentor, David. He needed a driver so Shawn suggested me. So I spent the day with him and his wife and he blessed me in so many ways its unreal. He treated me like a son and a prince and I only met him this morning. God is just really blessing me at the moment which I'm so grateful for. Last night i finally got a chance to go out with Kevin "coffee" Raymond. It was just him and I, a guys night out. He took me to a real steak restaurant, Texas style. Country music, real peanuts and you just throw the shells on the floor. Beautiful food, great fellowship and we just had a really great time. He was making sure I was good, seeing if I needed anything even clothes. Anything I needed he would have given me. So we just got dinner and mocha chillers afterwards. So all in all God has blessed me over these last few days. That's it at the moment. Keep in touch!