28 days until I leave

So instead of a count up its now a countdown until I leave. Its hard to believe its just four weeks away until I return to Toronto. It feels like an age since I left the school and its like a different world. Its been fantastic coming home and catching up with everyone here and just spending time with the people I love and care about. I'm having mixed feelings about going back which is normal I guess. When I think about certain aspects of the school, I get really excited and really look forward to my time there but then there's times I feel apprehensive and nervous. I think its just the thought of leaving home again and for such a long time. I'm going into a position that is outside of my comfort zone and something that I've never done before. Its going to be a challenge which is something I look forward to. Even as I write about it I'm getting excited which is good. So at the moment I'm working saving money towards my trip which is very monotonous but has to be done. So for the next month I'm going to spend as much time with my friends and family as I can and just enjoy my time at home.

Day 142

I'm at Youthstorm and its lovely to be back. I left Toronto on Saturday after spending lovely time with Allan and Paula. I had some fun on my flight with spending over an hour queuing in customs, all the time thinking I'm going to miss my flight but arriving at my gate and finding out we had no pilots. So my plane was delayed by an hour. I eventually arrived in Boston and I met Denise and Joe and it was great to see them. Then only one of my bags arrived. My second bag was on the next flight so we had to hang around the airport waiting for my bag to arrive. We eventually left the airport at midnight. So that was a fun experience. So I'm here at Youthstorm just hanging out catching up with people. I'm leading worship at the prayer furnace tonight which I'm looking forward to. I'm very excited to be coming home and its hard to believe that my flight leaves tomorrow night. I can't wait to see all of you and just catch up and share what God is doing. Its been great to catch up with Denise, she is doing well and really enjoying her time here. Well I'm looking forward to seeing you all in the next few days. See you all soon and God bless.

Day 138

I seem to start every post with an apology for the inconsistency of posting so I apologise for my inactivity. Its been a very busy 3 weeks with a lot of stuff having been packed. Since my last post the "come up here" conference has come and gone. It was great to see my Mom and everyone else and God moved which was fantastic. I also led worship at single parents retreat which was interesting. Its just been a very hectic few weeks but its been really good as well. I've learned so much and just drawn closer to God. Also a lot has happened. My room-mate and another girl were asked to leave the school about 10 days ago which was tough. On that same day I was asked to stay on as a small group leader. So my head was spinning taking in everything that happened. I took a few days to think about it, talked to some people, sought advice and prayed and I decided to take the position. So I will be here for another year growing myself but also helping others to grow and draw nearer to God. So I am now coming home a week earlier and I arrive in Shannon on the 29th June around 7am. Also there is a team from here coming over to Cork to work with us for a week and just pour in, I'm very excited about that. I officially graduated yesterday and we were anointed with oil too which was fun. So today has been a day of goodbyes and tears for some. I've had a fantastic time here and I'm just excited to tell ye all about it. I fly down to Youthstorm tomorrow evening which I'm looking forward to. A chance to hang out with Denise and the rest of the gang there for a few days. I'm in very much a transitional stage in this next few weeks but I'm trusting God. looking forward to seeing you all soon. Keep in touch and God bless.

Day 117

Again my apologies for the long gap between my posts but life is busy here and has been especially over this last two weeks. When I last posted I was in the middle of a fast which God brought me through. It was really good. I spent a lot of time in prayer, reading my bible and just seeking the Lord. Since then I've been to Philadelphia which was an amazing experience. Its still hard to believe there's a third world in the richest nation in the world. We went right down into east Philadelphia to Kensington Ave. This is an area that is rife with poverty, addiction and prostitution. Us guys slept right in the ghetto in this empty women's drop in centre place with no air conditioning. We went to sleep to hip hop beats and other sounds of the ghetto. That's an experience everyone should have. The main reason we were there was to bless the people. There was a large Markee set up in the park that's right along where all the solicitation goes on. We set up a sound system and worshipped over the course of the day. We handed out hundreds of bags of groceries and fed people. We prayed for everyone who came in. Every person had a heart breaking story and tears just flowed when we prayed for people. The place is rife with drug addiction. We were told every third house surrounding the park was a crack house. Some of our group found drugs on the ground under the tent and people would be taking heroin literally 30 feet away. It was an experience I'll never forget. Most importantly God was there. People we touched. We saw people healed and we had some amazing times of worship not just in the music we played but in just reaching out to the people in the community. So that was an amazing weekend.
At the moment we're in the middle of the "Come up here" conference and its been really good so far. My Mom is here as well as Doug, Julie and Eilish so its been great spending time with them and catching up. I don't have much more time left here but it has been an amazing experience. I'll be home in 33 days or so. I'm looking forward to seeing everyone again. God bless.

Day 102

I've surpassed a hundred days. That's weird. 100 days without my mom's cooking, the fry, 4 star pizza. Notice all of what I miss is food, that could be due to my fast. Of course I miss you all as well and Ireland its self but its all been worth it. God has been doing so much in me. I'm starting to realise now how far I've come and I'm seeing the fruit of his work in me. I'm in the middle of a fast and its been good. God is bringing me through it and giving me strength. Even doing a fast shows what God has done in me because ye all know how much I love my food. Noel Richards is here this week and he is just amazing. His heart, attitude and knowledge is totally class. He is so down to earth and just a great teacher. He did worship this morning and I got to play bass with him so that was really cool. I'm looking forward to the "Come up here" conference which is in two weeks. My Mom and a few others from home are coming so seeing them will be great. We leave for Philadelphia on Friday so keep me and my class mates in your prayers for that. I'll leave ye with some photos from my time here. They're mostly from a social night we had here last week. We had to dress up as someone else from the school. I was my friend Tim and he took a stab at being me. Also you might see some orbs in a couple of them. Our building is full of angels as you'll see. God bless.

Just to let you know 2..

I was involved in worship again on Thursday night this week. If you want you can watch it on tacf.org and click on revive tv.

Day 95

Once again my apologies for the lackage of postage but life as always is hectic here and I'm always busy. Exciting news, the worship school which I'm part of is going on a mini outreach down to Philadelphia. We're going to be going to a real ghetto type area just reaching out to the people there. There's a lot of brokenness and addiction in the area. Its going to focus around worship. There will be worship going on all day and we hope that will attract people and we'll just reach out to them, feeding them and just helping. So that's exciting. I also spent last weekend in Minneapolis catching up with Hannah and that was a really good time.
God has being doing a lot over here in me and in the school as a whole. These last two weeks my emotions had been very up and down and I didn't really know why. Then last Thursday God was speaking to me about it. At the beginning of the school I asked God for that real heart wrenching touch, where my emotions would just be overwhelmed and there would be an out pouring of my heart. In March he was saying be patient, this is a process I'm putting you through and I will give you your hearts desire in my timing. On Thursday night I was just worshipping and pressing in even though my mood was crappy I just said to myself I'm going to push through because my mood shouldn't inhibit me giving glory to my Father. So I just went for it and God spoke to me. He just said this is me, I'm doing this. Its another step in the process. I'm taking you there. So it's good to know God is hearing my prayers.
The school as a whole is really going for it more too. Last Monday we just had a spontaneous time of intercession and it was really good. God is here and he's doing loads. God has laid it on my heart to fast next week so keep me in your prayers if you can. I'll try and be more vigilant on my posts. Email me anytime. Its nice to hear from everyone. God bless

Just to let you know..

This post is mainly for my mom. I was involved in worship on the Thursday night meeting here, the 27th of April. If your signed up to revive t.v you can watch it. Its also free to sign up for future reference.

Day 80

Its been a hectic few weeks, hence my lack of posts over the last while. A load has happened since my last post. The worship school is under way and its been really good. We had two weeks with Jeremy and Connie Sinnott which was really good. They did a lot on prophetic singing, intimacy and the tabernacle. All of it was very interesting and enjoyable. We had Freshwind and it was great to see the bunch from home and it was great seeing them all touched. The conference was really good, with great worship from the band here and delirious. It was very tiring for me personally as i was working during the conference as well as ministering but it was a good experience. I worked on a stage outside run by the school of ministry and that was fun. I got to hang out with the crew from home for a couple of days and it was great to catch up. One downside was that I didn't get a chance to catch up on missed sleep and I was quite tired for that week but I loved seeing everyone.
Its hard to believe I'm past the halfway point on my trip away from home. Its been such a fabulous thing. Just looking back on it, sometimes I feel God has been doing much in me but over these last few days he's been showing me the differences from me then and me now. Its not like I've changed completely but he's just tweaked some things and dealt with struggles in my life. Its also a continuous thing. Its not like there's fresh revelation everyday and I hear his audible voice every half hour. Some days its about persevering and pursuing him and even if I don't "feel" him, I know he's constantly working in me. Last week was my hardest since I've been here and tiredness was a factor also. He was really speaking to me about my motivation and who am I out to please. Him or people. I just have to constantly maintain my focus on him and on him alone. My praise and adoration should go to him just because I love him to bits not because its the correct thing to do and if I do it my leaders will be proud of me. That's what he's really been speaking to me about my motivation and the reason for my worship. So that's interesting, not much fun on the old mood but these past few days have been really good in relation to that.
We've finally moved into our new building from our hotel and we're now right next to the church. Its a beautiful building with lovely rooms, an auditorium and classrooms. Se we're all settling in now. We're spending this week with Brian and Jenn Johnson and they're really good. We start each class with prophetic worship and they're really down to earth. So I'm in a good place and God is continuing to work in me and bless me. I'll try and be more regular in my posts in future.

Day 62

My apologies for the lack of posts but its been very busy the last while. I better start from the beginning of last week. We were in the middle of prophetic activation and it was really good stuff. Our teachers were Ivan and Isabel Alum and they also personally give every student a word. So they do it separately in single rooms. So I went into Ivan first and he said that he saw me like a thick loaf of bread full of grains and when the bread is set out on the table everyone takes from it and I will have a lot to give. He saw a pastoral anointing on me and he saw me going to desolate places church planting and just pouring into people who have been broken and hurt. He said I've an amazing anointing, passion and strength. He saw me in a full set of armour that's without a dent or scratch. He sees a huge father heart in me too.
Isabel also saw that I was strong, had leadership in me and that I had a pastoral heart. She said I will have a five fold ministry and that I've an apostolic anointing. There's a gift in my heart of endurance, that i am a fighter in a good way and that I can overcome opposition and battles. She saw me like David, Samson and Elijah bringing down strongholds. There is a spirit of a conqueror in me and that I won't see defeat in my life. I'm a survivor. I will receive a revelation of the fathers love and a release of joy in my heart. She also saw an apostolic anointing on my life. The stuff they said was just spot on and really blessed me.
So after that we had The Father loves you conference and that was really good. I was working in the kitchen doing dishes every afternoon and was on the ministry team in the evenings so it was quite a tiring experience but I really enjoyed the whole thing. Jack Frost was the highlight for me. He is such a gifted speaker and he had such a message that went straight to the heart. We also ended the conference with fire tunnels and that was cool.
The worship school officially started this week. So we've been spending the week with Jeremy and Connie Sinnott. Its been really good and they have such wisdom to impart and such fantastic hearts so its been really good. We've also been split into our worship teams for the duration of the school. They told us on Tuesday afternoon and they also told me that i was leading worship at the soaking centre that evening with some people from our team. So that was fun. It was me and two others from my team and we played in the soaking centre for two hours and it went really well. It was broadcasted over the Internet like most things here so you might see me some time playing. This weekend I'm at a friend's house getting a break from the hotel. His parents started CFC, Belfast with Paul Reid and they moved here 10 years ago and pastor a church an hour outside Toronto. So things are going well and I'm enjoying myself and God is doing a lot here. Looking forward to seeing all you guys coming to freshwind. Bless ye all.